How was I going to find time alone to hunt down J. Jenks, and why did Alice want me to know abouthim?
If Alice's clue had nothing to do with Renesmee, what could I do to save my daughter?
How were Edward and I going to explain things to Tanya's family in the morning? What if they reactedlike Irina? What if it turned into a fight?
I didn't know how to fight. How was I going to learn in just a month? Was there any chance at all that Icould be taught fast enough that I might be a danger to any one member of the Volturi? Or was Idoomed to be totally useless? Just another easily dispatched newborn?
So many answers I needed, but I did not get the chance to ask my questions.
Wanting some normality for Renesmee, I'd insisted on taking her home to our cottage at bedtime. Jacobwas more comfortable in his wolf form at the moment; the stress was easier dealt with when he felt readyfor a fight. I wished that I could feel the same, could feel ready. He ran in the woods, on guard again.
After she was deeply under, I put Renesmee in her bed and then went to the front room to ask myquestions of Edward. The ones I was able to ask, at any rate; one of the most difficult of problems wasthe idea of trying to hide anything from him, even with the advantage of my silent thoughts.
He stood with his back to me, staring into the fire.
"Edward, I—"He spun and was across the room in what seemed like no time at all, not even the smallest part of asecond. I only had time to register the ferocious expression on his face before his lips were crushingagainst mine and his arms were locked around me like steel girders.
I didn't think of my questions again for the rest of that night. It didn't take long for me to grasp the reasonfor hismood, and even less time to feel exactly the same way.
I'd been planning on needing years just to somewhat organize the overwhelming passion I felt for himphysically. And then centuries after that to enjoy it. if we had only a month left together... Well, I didn'tsee how I could stand to have this end. For the moment I couldn't help but be selfish. All I wanted was tolove him as much as possible in the limited time given to me.
It was hard to pull myself away from him when the sun came up, but we had our job to do, a job thatmight be more difficult than all the rest of our family's searches put together. As soon as I let myself thinkof what was coming, i was all tension; it felt like my nerves were being stretched on a rack, thinner andthinner.
"I wish there was a way to get the information we need from Eleazar before we tell them about Nessie,"Edward muttered as we hurriedly dressed in the huge closet that was more reminder of Alice than Iwanted at the moment. "Just in case.""But he wouldn't understand the question to answer it," I agreed. "Do you think they'll let us explain?""I don't know."I pulled Renesmee, still sleeping, from her bed and held her close so that her curls were pressed againstmy face; her sweet scent, so close, overpowered every other smell.
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- Chapter 34 Declared_暮光之城：破晓 Breaking Dawn
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